2012

In a blink of an eye, another year is going to end again so here I'm going to make new year resolutions for 2012 in advance which I haven't done so for a few years? 

1. Fair well for grade 6 piano practical, hopefully a high merit and I'll be more than happy.

2. Achieve good results for the last sem of the last sem in SIM and get a diploma cert. 

3. Buy a violin and self-learn (I've been wanting to do so since I don't know when).

4. Work and save more money to step out of asia next year, somewhere that I'll experience snow.

5. Be less temperamental.

6. Be contented with what I've and that's when I'll be happier.

7. Lastly, hope for the best but expect the least.

Anyway, 2011 was actually quite a good year. Although there was a down moment but it wasn't the most upsetting period of time compared to the past few years. In fact, I was much carefree and happier. I've learned not to expect so much and that worrying is impractical. It's like why not make the most of what's going to happen instead of worrying what you can't change? 

I'm really thankful to these people who are always there, my best friend and the secondary school girlfriends, spssc girlfriends and co, SIM girlfriends, juting and etc. Not forgetting that I've known a bunch of insanely fun and awesome people in H&M at the last quarter of 2011, y'all have definitely marked a great end to this year (: 

What makes you beautiful

Healthy monday

Honey dessert buffet for high tea.

 

 

 

 

 

Soba dinner at nex.

It's definitely a simple and happy day spent with mom and sis <3

Xmas

Spent xmas eve and xmas day itself working... yeah you guys must be wondering why would people wanna work during festive seasons but I'd get a higher pay if I work for both days, it's a combo. Sometimes I really do think that xmas is abit overrated? Like why can you only give/exchange gifts during this day and why not other days? Abit cliche isn't it?

Anyway, I finally managed to catch up with my dearest juting yesterday! (: And I just realized that we didn't take much pictures cause we were busy eating nonstop at nihon mura until we were so bloated and gave up. As usual, she'll stay-over at my crib and I'll crash almost immediately after I showered. We definitely must meet up soon again x.

Hope all of y'all had an enjoyable xmas day (:

Day 20 - A letter to the one who broke my heart

Dear you, I don't know if I should be glad or still upset that you broke my heart. You, someone whom I trusted so much, way more than anyone else if you didn't know. You, someone whom I knew for years, actually broke my heart more than anyone else did. Although this had happened more than a year ago, I'd remember how heart-wrenching it was. You once asked me, 'Would you mind if I'm gonna be good friends with x?' I said, 'I don't mind' and you replied, 'If I were you, I'd mind.' I seriously didn't mind till the extent that you actually chose to hide everything away from me, so how will you feel if you're in my shoes? How will feel if someone you trusted so much for years actually chose to hide everything away from you? I know, you didn't do that on purpose and you're worried that I may be upset/angry but do you know what's worse? That's when I found out everything myself. I'm neither angry nor upset anymore, I don't dislike you but I can't bring myself to trust you again. To be friends all over again? Maybe. But I guess there's this part of me that never will.

Lazy wednesday

Stayed home today and completed the whole series of forensic heroes 3! Hong kong shows always have awesome plots which are unpredictable and that's why I love them so much. Hopefully there'll be another season of this soon (:

Christmas is coming... but why don't I feel the joy of it? 

Day 17 - A letter to someone from my childhood

I remembered when I was only five or six then, I have this friend, a friend who was my childhood sweetheart. He's really adorable then, that I remembered vividly. The girls in the class would always surround him, probably I was the only exception. You wouldn't believe that I was really an introvet and I was just too shy to even talk to him. I remembered that there was once, he offered help to me when I was struggling with something (which I don't know what it was) and I was so damn happy. Well, the sad part of this is I couldn't remember his name, not even any clues of it but I remember his looks and which primary school he attended. Hopefully, I'll bump into him someday which hasn't been the case for around ten years when he almost got knocked down by my dad's car then. 

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Monday blues definitely, my grades totally caught me appalled and never did I expect that I'd be failing any modules especially macro econs. Maybe it's a blessing in disguise so I'll just study harder for two modules for the next two months. Sigh I know... but sometimes trying your very best wouldn't turn out best too. 

Fleakout

Dear maryann, you love to act shy. Hehehe.

Way too bored halfway through the flea. 

See how happy this girl is when it's dinner time!

My gigantic bowl of ebi cheese curry udon which is actually not that filling! 

Anyway fleakout wasn't as fabulous as I thought it will be. Management wise was pretty good but the crowd... abit ridiculous due to the rainy day, major sigh but at least I managed to cover the rental cost and earned abit which definitely can't be compared to three of my previous fleas but at least it's a simple saturday spent with maryann and not with the four walls and a lappy. 

Time to get to bed and I needa wake up way earlier than usual for work cause there won't be any north-south line and east-west line services until 10am like argh?! Have an awesome sunday ahead everyone! (:

Hatched

It's time for some iggy-eggies!

The well known sir benedicts are really thumbs-up! (Y)

@ Hatched for dinner!

@ Island creamery for ice-cream and desserts!

I swear I haven't felt this happy for quite sometime. Fiona just said, 'they are real'. Yes no doubts indeed, these girls are really real and true! That's why people always say, we'll usually make the best of friends during secondary school days (: I'm already thinking of what to do when we meet the next time... probably picnic or a slumber party sounds pretty awesome isn't it? :D

Anyway, shall end this post with my fav (hilarious) picture of the day... 

Love you girls very much xoxo! 

Anyway, do drop by home club tomorrow for fleakout flea event! Goodbye! (:

Sick and tired of being sick and tired

I'm sick and tired of being so stressed and always worrying about something. I never get a break from everything and I can't handle all these just by myself. What will you do if you regret a decision? I hate it when I've to make a decision, when I've to make a choice and when I may regret it one day, realizing that it's a huge mistake... then what am I supposed to do? To think life's that easy then, I'm so mistaken now.

No. I'm gonna swallow all these now.

Day 10 - A letter to someone I don't talk to as much as I'd like to

Dear you, I can't put this into words. I typed and I backspaced, typed again and backspaced again, thinking of what to write to you. You - probably someone whom I've never thought I'd miss when we didn't talk anymore. Just when I realized that we stopped chatting for that few months, it reminded me of how close we were in the past. We could joke, laugh and disturb each other like we don't have to apologize even if we used the most unglam words. You were always there until that period when we started to drift apart and became distant. You understood me like no one else does, or rather I'm amazed that you could read me. When I'm feeling down, you know it instantly without me telling you, you could feel it. However everything is different now. Although we still chat now, it's just not the same. I often wonder if all these happen for a reason, wonder if I could have a time machine to remake a decision and that things will not be like now... distant. I want to talk to you, wholeheartedly. I want to talk to you as much as before because you're someone I treasure, very much.

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P.S: I've skipped some days for the letter as I've no idea of what to write so 20 letters more to go, hopefully I'll be able to accomplish it. So stay tuned!

People help the people

People help the people
And if you're homesick, give me your hand and I'll hold it
People help the people
And nothing will drag you down

Day 7 - A letter to my ex boyfriend(s)

Here's a letter for each one of you who had made a mark in my life.

Dear first ex, I'm sorry I've hurt you (about four to five years back). You were my first love, my first boyfriend. You're the first guy who ever held my hand, first guy who ever hugged me and the first guy who ever kissed me. You'll always come to my class to talk to me once you reached school every morning before assembly and sometimes you'll even buy snacks for me. I'll never forget that once, you bought some snacks for me and secretly put it inside my bag and I was so shocked when I opened my bag during lesson time! You're also the first and only guy that my dad caught holding hands with and I 'ran away' from home, fearing that I'll get caned. I was only 14 then and it was obviously damn scary when my dad's face was as black as justice bao! You're the first guy I've spent valentine's day with (okay actually not exactly) but more of like the first guy who gave me a valentine's day present. Eight months of relationship ended because I've hurt you, I fell for another guy. I know I'm a bitch then but feelings is really hard to be controlled (and this only happened once, there's no second time!). I'm still very sorry but very thankful too because you're still a good friend now, okay more like a brother (:

Dear second ex, I gave up the first for you despite knowing that you're his friend. The first four months of relationship with you in 2007 and another four months relationship in 2008 after breaking up for a year were more like a hell than heaven. It took me almost another year to fully get over you. You wouldn't know how much you meant to me last time (but probably you do). Each time when something reminds me of you, I'd feel so foolish. So foolish of how much I've forked out, how much I've liked you, how much I've cared for you, how much I've always been giving in to you, how much I've been so disappointed and upset, how much tears that I've shed, how much I've struggled through and that I'll never know how much I meant to you in the past, not until now too but it doesn't matter anymore because I know we're world apart. I'm still thankful though. Because of you, I grew up and most importantly I've learnt so much.

Dear third ex, you appeared in my life in 2007 after the first break-up with my second. I really hated you because you played with my feelings. I was merely a rebound and you treated me like a princess to try to get over your ex-girlfriend. I've no idea what's wrong with me then to help patching both of you up after breaking up with you but it was a right choice because you'll never be someone I'll choose right now. Nevertheless, thank you for all the memories during those two months, I really felt like I'm a princess but there's always a day that I need to up from the sweet nightmare.

Dear last ex, I really don't regard you as my ex-boyfriend because you were just part of my life for a month and I doubt it was a serious one. Yes you've hurt me, more than anyone else does because you're the reason why I've lost a four years good friend, someone whom I used to trust so much and confided everything to. I wasn't jealous but upset that my good friend actually chose not to tell me anything about it. Some people are right, I shouldn't be feeling that way but you guys just wouldn't know how depressing it was when someone you trusted so much did this to you. Maybe you should try standing in my shoes and get a bite of it. I don't dislike you but dislike myself for knowing you. It was the biggest mistake in my life, at least till now, it still is. I'm glad I've seen your true colours and that it was merely a short while. Because of you, my guards are all up. Well and I guess you'll probably be a stranger to me for the rest of my life.

A past will always be a past, I've no regrets and I'll still be looking forward to the future because I know it'll be much better than all these (:

Wonders of the world

Places that I wanna visit within ten years from now.

San francisco.

Switzerland.

Venice.

Hokkaido.

Harbin.

Rome.

Orlando, new york.

Sydney.

Actually there are more but it's quite impossible to list down all. It's a bliss to be able to travel. I actually don't mind backpacking for a year or so, anyone up for it with me?

Day 5 - My dreams

Dreams, who doesn't have?

I'm dreamer and I've plenty of them.

I've dreamed of becoming a musician because I've a strong passion for music. Well piano is my forte and I could easily learn other musical instruments.

I've dreamed of becoming a pastry chef or a baker because I love sweet treats! Then I've dreamed of opening a cafe, not to earn big bucks but to be able to share the love of my own pastries and cakes. It's really beyond happiness.

I've dreamed of becoming an air stewardess. Although I'm short but I think I'm able to make it if I want to? Well I love to travel alot, to alot of different places. Singapore is just way too boring, agree?

I've dreamed of becoming an interior designer. When I was a child, I would scribble floor plans but obviously I failed when I took up interior design course in poly and withdrew halfway through.

I've dreamed of falling in love with someone, someone who loves me for who I'm, someone who will bring me to awesome places in this world, someone who will make breakfast for me, someone who will take care of me when I'm sick, someone who will surprise me with my favourite flowers (sigh I haven't received any before), someone who's simple and lovely.

I've dreamed of so many things but will they, not all but some, come true?

Day 4 - To my sister

Dear sister, we've been sleeping in the same room for the past 17 years. You're really a good sister beside the fact that you will take my things without permission which would really piss me off, but overall, you'll be the one who'll listen to my complaints or happy news or it can just be anything. I love how we could chit-chat for hours at night from nothing to everything. Probably you're just two years younger than me and that you're a girl too and that's why you will somehow understand me. Thank you for being such a great sister <3

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Okay, even though exams are over but life's still a bore because most of my friends are still having exams! ): So I have been working, staying home, working again, staying home again and still working and home afterwards like almost everyday. Guess I really need to get an interesting life soon and the reason for this mundane routine is because I'm saving up for my getaway in jan (just fyi, I'm paying every single cents myself)!!

Christmas and new year are coming but I'm not really looking forward to it, maybe cause I feel that both days are probably just another two days. Singapore is so small and if you're gonna celebrate both festive seasons out, especially at town area, then it's gonna be so lunatic. I definitely won't be able to stand the sardine-packed places. Oh well, shall see how things go. Till then, goodbye :>

Day 3 - To my parents

Dear parents, thank you for giving me a chance to live in this world. Although life isn't always wonderful, but it has taught me alot. Without both of you, I won't be who I'm now. Thank you for all the love that both of you have given me and I'm sorry for being rude at times. All and all, both of you are two of the most important people in my life <3

Day 2 - To my crush

Dear crush, you're invisible. You do not exist in my world right now but somehow I hope you do. It gives me an excitement, an adrenaline rush which will probably make me happy but yet disappointed if I do expect something. Well if you do exist someday, I hope you'll be a beautiful one.

Day 1 - To my best friend

In a lifetime, we often have many friends which we'd usually classify into - acquaintances, normal friends, good friends and best friend(s). Well, who says each person can only have one best friend? Best friend is just a term, isn't it? I personally feel best friend is a genuine true friend, someone who'll always be there for you no matter whatever happens, someone whom you'll never drift apart with even if she/he doesn't meet up with you frequently, someone who truly cares for you and definitely someone who doesn't judge you.

Here's a letter for my two best friends.

Dear best friend one, you're the only one that I've always regarded as my bff. Our birthdays are five days apart and this is why we always celebrate our birthdays together every year. It's quite ridiculous how we became bff cause we used to be 'enemies' when we were younger but due to certain circumstances, things gradually changed. We could really understand each other, be there for each other no matter what had happened in the past and that was when I knew you're really true to me. It has been six years since the day I've known you, somehow I had the intuition that you'd become my best friend from the first day I saw you (I've never told you that before). Even though we meet up once every few months or so, I can always open up to you anytime I'm feeling down and you'll always be a very good listener and adviser. You're probably the best out of the best, cause we have never ever quarreled or had any arguments after we've become best friends. Y'know, I treasure this friendship alot and that I love you alot too <3

Dear best friend two, we've never ever mentioned each other as each other's best friend but you're the only one whom I've known for ten years. We share alot of common interests - from watching drama series to shopping to eating all savory food and desserts to endless gossips and catching ups to many many more. You're always the listener and I'm always the story-teller and you'd always say the same thing to me, 'michelle, your life can really be written into a novel'. You'd know every bits and pieces of my life even though we meet up once every few months as well. Guess the reason why I've regarded you as a best friend is that you're my favourite drama-buddy, favourite food-buddy, favourite shopping-buddy, favourite stayover-buddy and etc. I love you alot too, as well <3

30 days of letters

A month to my getaway and I shall accomplish the task of 30 letters as the countdown to it!

Day 1 — Your Best Friend

Day 2 — Your Crush

Day 3 — Your parents

Day 4 — Your sibling (or closest relative)

Day 5 — Your dreams

Day 6 — A stranger

Day 7 — Your ex-boyfriend/girlfriend/love/crush

Day 8 — Your favorite internet friend

Day 9 — Someone you wish you could meet

Day 10 — Someone you don’t talk to as much as you’d like to

Day 11 — A deceased person you wish you could talk to

Day 12 — The person you hate most/caused you a lot of pain

Day 13 — Someone you wish could forgive you

Day 14 — Someone you’ve drifted away from

Day 15 — The person you miss the most

Day 16 — Someone that’s not in your state/country

Day 17 — Someone from your childhood

Day 18 — The person that you wish you could be

Day 19 — Someone that pesters your mind—good or bad

Day 20 — The one that broke your heart the hardest

Day 21 — Someone you judged by their first impression

Day 22 — Someone you want to give a second chance to

Day 23 — The last person you kissed

Day 24 — The person that gave you your favorite memory

Day 25 — The person you know that is going through the worst of times

Day 26 — The last person you made a pinky promise to

Day 27 — The friendliest person you knew for only one day

Day 28 — Someone that changed your life

Day 29 — The person that you want tell everything to, but too afraid to

Day 30 — Your reflection in the mirror

Goodbye exam!

Today's the long-awaited day since I don't know when!! I'm so so so glad that this diploma course has come to an end... but that's if my hard work has paid off this time and that I can pass all my modules then I'm gonna graduate yayyyyyyyyy! Meanwhile, I'm gonna enjoy my (7 months) holiday to the fullest before enrolling myself in a degree course :D

Pardon me, I still wanna emphasize that EXAM'S OVERRRRRRRRRRR!!!

Dear you

You wouldn't know.

You'll never know.

It felt so real.

It was amorous.

It lingered on.

Hello december

Another month has just passed in the blink of an eye, another year will be ending soon as well. Time flies fast, isn't it? Well it does.

Anyway, I've survived three papers in two consecutive days. Hope that my hard work will be paid off and that I can graduate after this sem! Shall do the last sprint of studying for macro in awhile and I'll do up a wish list and to-buy-list soon after the last paper! (Lots of things in mind to get!!)

All the best to those who are having exams this week/next week! (: