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I'm insanely hooked to this song,(it's really fated) thanks min :>



The gloves are off, the wisdom teeth are out 
What you on about? 
I feel it in my bones, I feel it in my bones 
I'm stronger now, I'm ready for the house 
Such a modest mouse
I can't do it alone, I can't do it alone

Make me fall

So make me fall in love 

Even if I get hurt 

I'll be the only fool in the world 

Just make me fall in love

Bangkok day three: Chatuchak + Union mall

Woke up rather early and took a cab down to the largest weekend market in bkk, chatuchak! It's always wiser to bring a brolly and a cap with you in case the weather chooses to have sudden moodswing.

Secretly snapped some visuals of him choosing his polos! 

Being a fool once again, totally can't stand him being this nutty at times. 

Guess what I saw again!

Huge crowd queuing up for the coconut ice-cream! 

Here's mine, with sticky rice and nata de coco! 

Here's one of the shops which I like a lot in chatuchak, if I remember correctly, it's at section 3 where most of the in style apparels are being sold but prices are definitely steeper.  

39 baht shades on sale and chose a funky one for the boy...

#actcoolboy90 #lovinghisfunkyshades 

It's a must to have these mochi ice-cream at union mall!  

Finally met my sissy over here as she flew a day later than me.

There wasn't much visuals taken as both of us were pretty worn out after continuously shopping since morning. Last day of the trip will updated in bits, stay tuned (:

It's okay to be sad sometimes

"Happiness is a choice. So I often wonder: Is sadness a choice too? Who wants to be sad? Happiness is something that most of us long for. Happiness is the positive emotion and state of mind that most of us want to live in. Sadness seems dark and dismal and something to flee from. Sadness, however, is something that we all experience at one time or another. And maybe it’s okay to be sad sometimes.

I try to be happy as much as I can. I have a lot to be grateful for and I try not to lose sight of it. Even in life’s challenges, I was always taught to try to find the happiness in each struggle or pain or hurt. And I try to as much as I can. But I am a real person and I can’t always do that. Sadness is not my feeling or emotion of first-choice but l also think in many ways, sadness is an inevitable feeling.

I’ve never really been good at expressing sadness. I can express happiness and anger and frustration and passion. But sadness always seemed like weakness to me. It always seemed like something dark and dangerous that if I embodied too much, it wouldn’t leave. Still, I have been sad because sadness is a part of life. But I never quite knew what to do with it. Oftentimes I would try to keep busy and ignore it and let it pass. I wouldn’t want to think about it or feel it or get to know it. I just wanted it to pass and to choose happiness again.

But I’m starting to think sadness should be felt in the realest way. It obviously exists for a reason. It exists to show our humanity, our ability to be compassionate to others, and to ourselves. It shows that no matter how strong we are, we’re all ultimately human which means our strength is finite. Sadness is also a reminder of how much we need each other because most of the time our sadness comes from each other just as much as it comes from within. Sadness is a great teacher in many ways and maybe the most important lesson we learn is to be honest with ourselves about our feelings.

I hate talking about feelings. The only time I really do it is when I write – which is probably why I write a lot. Talking about feelings has just never been my thing and talking about sadness just makes me feel helpless. But as I write this, I realized that I was sad today. Sad about things that I feel like I want to change but can’t seem to find the courage to do so. Sad because I felt alone today and not in a good way. And maybe sad because I forgot to remember all the things that make me happy.

I don’t like being sad and I don’t like talking about being sad. But I’m learning that it’s okay to feel sad sometimes. I’m learning that sadness is simply a part of reality that must be embodied and endured. I’m still a happy person, well at least I hope I will be tomorrow. And I hope I’ll accept what I can change and what I cannot. And I’ll try not to forget to remember all the things that I’m grateful for; the things that make me happy. But in this moment, I’m sad. And in this moment, maybe that’s perfectly okay."

A piece which I can totally relate today, maybe it's monday and its blues, and maybe that's alright.

No matter what

You are so beautiful, it should be criminal that you could be mine.

I was reading through my previous blog and happened to chance upon this song (haven't listened to this for ages). Will be heading in awhile for the 1/3 consecutive closing shifts, sacrifices I've made just to meet the boy on sat because he has duty on sun and I thought we can meet on that day instead but oh well, unpredictable. Hang in there, michelle! 

My skin

Contempt loves the silence, it thrives in the dark with fine winding tendrils that strangle the heart.

No ordinary love

I gave you all the love I got 
Gave you more than I could give 
Gave you love

Spent the whole saturday digging my head into the notes and squeezing all brain juices trying to understand the theories though I got distracted a little by thoughts of planning new traveling vacations. Nevertheless I should be glad that it's just prelim (ungraded), not the final exams and that totally makes me feel like fast forwarding the time to may because...

1. Exams will end on 15 may, holiday yay!
2. My best friend's birthday is on 20 may.
3. And my birthday on 25 may hohoho! (Still planning, I'd appreciate if some kind souls will be able to give me more ideas)
4. Getaway and more getaways!

P.S: Anyway to the anony who requested for a vsco post, I'm so sorry but I've been pretty busy, will try to do up the post soon! 

This time tomorrow

So there my friend, you're in the deep end 
Just hanging on to hope by a loose thread 
Well it's never good, to try and play pretend 
But maybe what's broken, can start to shine 

 And you'll find, this time tomorrow 
We'll decide where it will all go, in this life

Love is easy

If this is love, then love is easy, it's the easiest thing to do
If this is love, then love completes me cause it feels like I've been missing you
A simple equation with no complications to leave you confused
No, if this is love, love, love, it's the easiest thing to do

This is why mcfly has always been my fav band and dougie is still as charming as ever! To attend their live concert is definitely in my bucket list, can someone just fulfill this dream for me?

#1

Holla world, if you've been reading my tweets, you would have known that my nose bleeding syndrome is haunting me again just last night and this morning thus I had to give school and work a miss. Maybe I really love being a couch potato these days, lazing at home and dozing off as and when I like but that's definitely not the right way because prelims is nearing, just exactly in four weeks' time!

Anyway, a colleague of mine told me something at work yesterday which tickled me right away teehee.

A: Omg michelle, I've got something to tell you! 
Me: Yes yes what is it!
A: Err, I need to tell you personally.
Me: Just tell me now uh.
A: Aiya, actually it's nothing much, I tell you later okay.

So she left me hanging all the way until after I came back from lunch break.

Me: So can you tell me now?
A: Huh, err, I don't know how to tell you, really nothing much.
Me: Omg you're killing me. I feel like ignoring you.
A: Huh don't like that leh... anyway I really like to see your pictures with your bf, both of you look so compatible, so sweet! 
Me: Really?! I'm gonna tell him that (smiling to myself and my heart was actually screaming yay inside)!

This actually made my noon at work yesterday so... do we look compatible like what she said? :> (Look below)

When it feels like it's love, all the stars lift you up 
Well, to place you high above on top of the world 
 And you know it must be right cause it's burning up inside 
I can feel it in your eyes I want you to know
Yeah I'm just glad that I found you

It has been quite sometime (no, I should say a very long time) since I've last said this kinda cheesy peasy things on a public space but I still want to type this over here.

Do you still remember the first time we chatted? All the way from 12 to 4 in the morning, continuously? You told me, your thumbs were so numb and you haven't chatted with someone for this long but this ain't stopping you. I felt it, that kinda spark, from you and between us. Yes this was how maniacal when we only knew each other for a day (less than a day). You would send me pictures like 'I text you, you don't text back, I feel stupid', 'cat showing puppy eyes' and '/flip table/' which I thought were damn cute. However, things weren't as smooth sailing as it went on at the beginning. It was rather berserk too, how we had all the little arguments here and there. My fears and your deep emotions were conflicting but all these made a good turn miraculously. It wasn't easy for me to take a step out to trust someone again but your sincerity made me believe so. 31 days have just passed in a blink of an eye, we have had the craziest happy moments and slight tough times but with faith, love and trust, these wouldn't stop us. Happy monthsary, my lover boy, GJ <3

The world as I see it

Yeah the world as I see it, is a remarkable place
Every man makes a difference and every mother’s child is a saint
From a bird's eye view I can see, we are spiraling down in gravity
From a bird's eye view I can see, you are just like me

Honey bee

Oh my other honey bee 
No longer stuck where he doesn’t wanna be 
Oh my darling honey bee I have saved you 
And now that you’re with me 
We can make our own honey

The word is words

Hi folks, here's a song to share with y'all and I could just somehow relate to this song, pretty much.

 

Well there's nothing left to say 
The word's just collapse into colorful waves in the spectrum of sound 
And it's easy on the ears and it's nice to hear 
But it doesn't mean a thing, no it doesn't mean a thing

Little house

Please don't make a fuss, it won't go away 
The wonder of it all 
The wonder that I made 
I am here to stay 

 I am here to stay 
Stay

Just give me a reason

Just give me a reason 
Just a little bit's enough 
Just a second we're not broken 
Just bent and we can learn to love again

If you have a battle between the heart and mind, what would you do? Will you choose to listen to your mind or follow your heart? Think or feel?

Between the raindrops

Chasing after gold mines 
Crossing the fine lines we knew 
Hold on and take a breath 
I'll be here every step 
Walking between the raindrops with you

Sort of

And if I was stronger then I would tell you no 
And if I was stronger then I will leave this show 
And if I was stronger then I would up and go 
But here I am and here we go again

Beautiful goodbye

All the pain you try to hide 
Shows through your mascara lines 
As they stream down from your eyes 

 And let them go, let them fly 
Holding back won't turn back time 
Believe me, I've tried

Heartburn

Burn everything you have 
And leave it all behind 
Lose all your inhibitions 
I'll take the mess you made 
And make it beautiful 
Oh if time only stood still forever, forever

Good things

Though I'm no longer a fan of chinese songs, this song is an exception because it's so melancholy and touching and I don't know how to describe... How slow I'm just to realize this song after watching love you for the second time. So in love with this right now that I actually took an extra mile last night to find the piano score to learn it! A piano cover, maybe, yay/nay?

Excited for brunch date with bff tomorrow yay :>