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There was saying, 'you tend to sleep more when you're sad' so does that mean that I'm sad because I've been sleeping a lot or rather I've been wanting to sleep more these days. Maybe I'm, this part of me, which is sad though I don't know the reason. 

Anyway this is why I'm still wide awake at this hour, updating this mundane space of mine. Recently I've lost all motivations to study, work and learn piano, in fact almost anything I do. I just feel like cooping myself in the room and face the four walls the whole day, just like what I did today. Nothing was on my mind and there was nothing I'm anticipating to. Yes it's a festive month and it was 12/12/12 which I find rather cliche and I should be happy and look forward to something exciting but nothing seems to be, maybe excluding this upcoming weekend when I get to meet my girlfriends and NYE when I can finally take a five good days getaway from this little dot. 

Just probably, too tired.

Alone, lonely and loneliness

"Alone is calm. It’s listening to the things you have to say to yourself, giving time to the more important reflections that you often allow to settle in the back of your mind like a fine dust swept under a rug. Alone is walking along a street, just you and your city, taking things in that you often don’t take the time to appreciate when you’re busy with other people. It is allowing your senses to be your company, talking to you with a million different voices of how good this smells or how wonderful that feels. It is taking the time to soak in your surroundings, instead of just existing blindly within them.

Lonely is allowing this freedom from judgment to take root in your life, to become a reason to let things go. It is losing perspective of other people to the point that your entire world narrows down to you and exactly what you’re doing in that moment. Lonely is seeing something so beautiful that you feel your heart cannot contain it all by itself, that it is going to burst from the radiance that it is longing to express. It is wanting to turn to someone, anyone, and say “Look at that. Isn’t that wonderful?” and realizing that, as with so many other memories of late, there is just no one there to share it with.

Loneliness is the human condition. Cultivate it. The way it tunnels into you allows your soul room to grow. Never expect to outgrow loneliness. Never hope to find people who will understand you, someone to fill that space. An intelligent, sensitive person is the exception, the very great exception. If you expect to find people who will understand you, you will grow murderous with disappointment. The best you’ll ever do is to understand yourself, know what it is that you want, and not let (anyone) stand in your way."

Because sometimes the unexpected brings more excitement

Kinda like this candid pic!

Hi sherwin sista you needa stop pouting and take a picture with us! 

A simple saturday evening spent with agnes, reina and sherwin at canele last night. I was on cloud nine as I've finally satisfied my sweet tooth cravings and got some macarons too! Apparently there were a lot of impromptu plans yesterday and as a planner myself, I don't really fancy that anymore but sometimes it'd be better than I thought. Well, so I chose to meet up with my best friend after her umpteen of requests and hello darling evelyn, you should thank me again for saving you from the awkwardness which I doubt it's any awkward or maybe you really have some hidden agenda (hmmm) but all's great (: